aw... i haven't updated since... a month a go.ö exactly a month a go.. aha
anyway.. ayun.. andami nangyari.. now. 2010 is here at last. i've been trying my best to be a good girl actually.. pero.. wala atang improvement. :DD haha. LOL.

dec. 19, 2009:

CHRISTMAS PARTY!










hahaha. who's-the-fastest-in-eating-an-apple-game!!Ü and guess what??

me and xang2x won.XDD hahaha

gala. gala. gala.

hala. labas naman ulit.

hahahaha. wonder where nmn kami nagyon... hmmmm...

gala. gala. gala.

hala. labas naman ulit.

hahahaha. wonder where nmn kami nagyon... hmmmm...

another day..

ayun.. 8pm na ako nakauwi last friday..
gala. same old. same old.. wala nmn masyadong nangyari.
hmm...nagaway lang kami ni rea..
tapos andami namin dun.. kasma namin si jhunel, armie tsaka kates.. hm... usually kasi di ba ten lang kmi...

that time madami na.. haha. hm... may good news pa.. sweet pa si kervin tsaka si riza!!! YEHEEY for the newly hooked-again couple.!!!! haha. hm... tapos si rea.. nag-cry-cry.. KASI WALA NA SILA NI BES.... TAPOS... sakin tuloy nabaling yung galit niya....
ganito kasi nagsimula yun o....

me: tanungin mo nga si rea kung galit siya sakin.
geela: anu ba kasing ayaw mo kay robbie?
rea: naiirita ako sa mukha niya.
BOOM.!! dun na nagsimula!! hahaha. sobrang away to the max na talaga.
whew. grabe.. we went rampaged... me and rea.. natameme nga si bes eh... hayyy...
pero in the end.. happy ending na din kami... ((:


and as usual.. ok na ulit. ((:
haha. hm.. ngayon.. papunta akong new isabela. haha.

tambay mode naman.!!!

हम्म..

ayun..[: today is another boring day. hmm. practice for the musical. lapit na siena week. hayyy.. ako.. ok na. gala naman mamaya after practice.. katamad kaya pag walang gala.! thank you to whoever invented it. ahmp. hm,.. tsege.tsege. to muna.. wala naman exciting pa na nangyari eh. haha. bye.bye!((:

HALA. mabait na ako ba!! haha.
nagpapa.good shot para umuwi si mami. XD
hm. usap kami kagabi ba... pinagalitan niya ako. haha. as usual.
pero dad ko di pa tumatawag. ahayy... war pa kami ngayon. haha.
pero ok lang.. hmm...

me prob bes ko.. so... ayun.. help. help. help.

sana maging ok na sila ni rea.. hayy... anyway.. kita ko na card ko. ü
pero.. TAKE NOTE: kahit gaga ako. wala akong bagsak. ö
hm... one week na rin walang inom.inom.
good for me.Ü tma man hun???

hahahahaha.

what happened last TUESDAY was probably the most "arghhh!!!" TUESDAY of my life.

TUESDAy:

Drum corps competition for KALIMUDAN.

Nag.absent kami.
tapos dun kami nagstay kay na Kervin.

hayy.. to think, from 7am to 12pm.. we did nothing but tambay.
hindi pa kami umiinom. everything's fine. BUT when 2pm striked. hala.
nagkagulo na.


we decided na sa LEI's na lang daw uminom..
so... nagpunta kami dun.
sabi ni riza.. "wag niyo na isama si balong."
manliligaw kasi ni riza yun..
so... hindi nga sinama.
pero after a while... sumunod sila ni Kervin sa LEI's.

GRABE. shocked-still kami lahat. GRABE ang tension men.!!

nagusap si balong at riza. kahit magkatabi sila.. via text messages ang communication.

ako naman, wala. LIPONG na. alcohol has taken control of me and my darn brain.

umalis nalang si balong at kervin after a while. babalik daw sila sa bahay nila kerv.
sabi ko kay kervin, "Kaw lang bumalik mamaya."


tapos.. nagtext sila after a while, pinapapunta si Riza at ako dun. Kakausapin daw kami. hayy.. sobrang gulo.

to make the story short.. pumunta ulit kami sa bahay nila kervin. dalawa lang kami ni riza.


nasa likod sila ng bahay nila balong.
and i called out.. sabi ko kay balong magusap sila ni riza ng maayos. tapos, when i turned around. i came face-to-face with kervin's chest. as in, isang strand of hair na lang an layo..

i looked up. darn! ANG LIIT KO PALA!.

he asked: "drunk already?"
"baka ikaw." i retorted. pero deep inside.. kinakabahan na ako.

tapos he did something unexpected...:
he hugged me! so tight na halos hindi na ako makahinga!
i was already tip-toing so i can breath!!
"kerv, bitawan mu na ako. hindi na ako makahinga."
i told him again and again.

i was so shocked nung sinabi niyang..
"once lang. kahit isang beses lang."

i was so shocked-still. i think that hug lasted for 15 mins. nung binitiwan niya ako.. parang walang nangyari.


basta dami pa nangyari.. nakakagulat talaga. sobrang cheezy nga lang!! kso tinatamad na ako magtype eh.[: haha.
next time na lang ulit.

SUCCESS!

.haha.

yes.!!! pinasali na ulit ako sa sayaw!!
thanks to maam joy!!
waah.!! love you maam!!

hay.. kaso hindi ako pwede mag.vb..

hayy life.

bday na ni naph2 bukas....
ala pa ako maiisip na regalo...
hayy nlan.
tsk.

i made a big mistake

whew. gosh. grabe yung nangyari nung b-day ni Aubrey.

haha. we celebrated her birthday last friday (october 16)

we were having so much fun that i forgot that i need to go home by 9:30 pm..

hala. hindi na ako nakauwi.

i got home by around 11 am, Saturday.

my grandma went RAMPAGED.

pinagalitan ako ng BONGGANG.BONGGA.!!

ayun. bawal na ako magsayaw. tsaka maglaro ng VB.

waah.! wawa naman ako.

hayy... pero kasalanan ko naman e.Ü

kaya... magtitiis muna ako.ö

silence means i'm in pain.

grabe..
i can't remember the time na i feel betrayed by anyone until TODAY.
and it's because of my best friend.

my best friend and i... by the way.. he's a HE. a boy, i mean.. we're best friends for almost two years... i'm in an all-girls school while he's in a co-ed. how we became "BES". is a long story..!!

we share everything.. NO SECRETS. i always tell him everything. from my personal life down to my love life. and he also do the same- - -

then he met "HER". (i will not name names because i don't like.):p naging close sila because of me. naghahanap kasi ng girlfriend ang BES ko so... i provided one for him. (as always) i always give him what he wants.. out of habit.


at first.. we're still ok. but sometimes.. i feel the distance between us. it's not the same. our relationship was as easy as breathing. But when he courted "HER", i feel unimportant to him.
i know and i accept that our relationship will be affected by this sudden courtship.

then... i opened this up to him... want to know his reply?


"your my BES, and always will be. walang dapat magbago dun."

i feel secured.


then something happened today that made me cry.

HE LIED.

i hate it. i hate his guts to face me when he knows he's lying to me.

he lied.. telling me that "her" and him are not yet hooking up because they need time.
what i didn't know.. i was the only one in our "barkada" that doesn't know that they already hooked-up.

i was upset.. not because I'm jealous.. its because that the fact that he lied to me made my heart want to cry out "F***".



Especially when he said... "bes, hndi ko siya pinapayagan na sagutin ako. gusto ko magtagal pa ligawan namin."
then i made him promise to tell me everything when they are already together.. and of course, he said "YES"

i was so hurt that i didn't talk to him when our barkada gathered again this afternoon. He thought that i was only bluffing when i told him i hate him.

i dont know when i will forgive him... he didn't even asked for forgiveness.
i told myself that it's not my loss. that it's ok. but i can't seem to face the truth that sometimes i expected to much from him.

i have my blog now!!

tnx to my HUN (inns.:D).

I already have my blog!